Fixation on Missing Hat

I felt a little off center yesterday. It started when I used the lavender scented body scrub in the shower. The smell was a little too chemical-y for me. When I first rec'd this gift, I liked the smell.

Then I did not do my laundry or dishes, so my home was a little too messy. Also, I hadn't gone grocery shopping, so on the way to my part-time job I went through the drive-through and bought a milkshake. Stopping for this purchase made me just a bit late/or just-in- time depending on your point of view. I'm suppose to arrive at work 15 minutes early just in case and to sign-in. I arrived just-in-time to work with the children. The supervisor was frantic on the phone with the director because I had not shown up. Then she saw me, told the director I had arrived, and hung up the phone.

The supervisor told me to call the director later. I didn't call him because I don't feel like hearing him tell me to arrive 15 minutes early. He's such a scatterbrain anyway, I'm hoping he'll forget. Also, I'm annoyed he did send me all the materials I do need. Eventually, I'll need to contact him.

The kids misbehaved and were very snotty and rude. I just don't have the patience for this particular age group.

Afterwards, I was late getting out of there because I had to clean up the materials. So there!

When I stopped for gas, I realized I lost my hat or left my hat behind. Damn! That annoyed me most of all. It's a new hat, and I really, really like it for its warmth and design.

I also drove to a few stores looking for a new hat, but there weren't any I like. Damn again. It was snowing, and the streets were slick.

Once home, I realized I had not had any protein or a real meal all day. Nor did I have anything of substance in the house.

I watched a true life murder story and was glad when I went to bed.

Even though I took my trazadone (sp?), I kept waking up thinking about the damn hat.

This morning, I bought a few groceries and a crappy, cheap new hat.

I feel somewhat better and am trying not to think of missing hat, but am not succeeding. The hat made me happy. It really did. It was warm, comfy, and cute and did not slide off my head. I'm just irritated at self. I hope when I go to the school next week, it'll be in the lost and found box.

I found the phone number of the store and will call to see if they have another they can ship me. Hopefully, I can describe the hat well and they have another in stock.

I can't believe I'm fixated on my $12.50 hat. But, damn, it's cold outside! The wind chill is below zero.

Ever lose something that you just can't get over?? People have lost a lot more, so I shouldn't be upset. But I am upset. It's stupid to be fixated on my hat, but I can't help it.

P.S. I'm not sure why there's a blank space in the photo.