Target Off My Back

This month I have felt like there is a target on my back. I have been in two different car accidents; neither was my fault. My neck and back ache. I'm dealing with three different insurance companies, one repair shop, one rental car agency, and one doctor.

The second crasher and her friends verbally assaulted me and laughed at my injuries. I yelled back at her and her posse and then burst into tears. Since this scene took place at night in the cold, I felt extra woe some and extra lonely.

The crappy news is that I was alone and lonely. The good news is that I was alone and am still managing to take care of myself by going to the doctor, handling the insurance information, and keeping track of the documentation. I was beginning to wonder if I even need other people (friends, partners, family). Sometimes I feel like saying, "To hell with you all."

I am in the trough of depression - blah.

Tomorrow I have two activities planned: one with a group of friends and another with a therapeutic drummer and certified aromatherapist. I'll be in a drumming circle with nice smelling oils in the room.

I am hoping that by doing these activities tomorrow, a wave will lift me out of the trough and onto it's crest where I WILL STAY.

Problem Solving - Borrow Brains

I had a huge major money problem this past week. I need to find a way to get to work next week (a 45-minute drive) without my car. My car was in the shop with hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of dollars of repairs. I didn't have the money. I started brainstorming. I started calling up certain people who had extra cars or were going on vacation and asked to borrow their cars. They said no!

I asked other friends for ideas after explaining my problem. Some were able to give me a ride on one day but not another. Somewhere along the way I was crying feeling sorry for myself. But once I got that out of the system, I went back to brainstorming. I kept asking for ideas figuring several brains were better than my one brain.

After several hours of calling around, two people offered to lend them money. I did not ask them for a loan. They offered a loan to me. Whew! Okay, I said some prayers too.

The point is to reach out and ask if anyone has any ideas on how to solve this problem. Because other people aren't caught up in their emotions, they are able to think more clearly. Someone may know something you may not know.

Hopefully, that was my last problem for 2010! My head was so exhausted afterwards that I went to bed early.

I hope you enjoy these last few days of 2010!

Lita