This month I have felt like there is a target on my back. I have been in two different car accidents; neither was my fault. My neck and back ache. I'm dealing with three different insurance companies, one repair shop, one rental car agency, and one doctor.
The second crasher and her friends verbally assaulted me and laughed at my injuries. I yelled back at her and her posse and then burst into tears. Since this scene took place at night in the cold, I felt extra woe some and extra lonely.
The crappy news is that I was alone and lonely. The good news is that I was alone and am still managing to take care of myself by going to the doctor, handling the insurance information, and keeping track of the documentation. I was beginning to wonder if I even need other people (friends, partners, family). Sometimes I feel like saying, "To hell with you all."
I am in the trough of depression - blah.
Tomorrow I have two activities planned: one with a group of friends and another with a therapeutic drummer and certified aromatherapist. I'll be in a drumming circle with nice smelling oils in the room.
I am hoping that by doing these activities tomorrow, a wave will lift me out of the trough and onto it's crest where I WILL STAY.
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Friday, January 28, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Creating Our Own Anxiety
Today's posting is right out of Meditations for People Who Worry (copyright 1996) by Anne Wilson Schaef.
" If anxiety has truly become natural, maybe this should be a clue that it is time to do something differently as we approach the twenty-first century.. . . We have designed our lives and our societies in such a way to make our anxiety our reality.
What good news! If we are the one who have designed our lives and society - constructed the sets and created the drama - then we have the power to change them.
We are not just the victims of our situation. We are the creators of something new."
At this moment I can't think of a change I recently made in my life, but after I get off this computer, I'm going for a walk.
-Lita-
Being Creators Not Victims
"The natural role of twentieth-century man is anxiety." - Norman Mailer
" If anxiety has truly become natural, maybe this should be a clue that it is time to do something differently as we approach the twenty-first century.. . . We have designed our lives and our societies in such a way to make our anxiety our reality.
What good news! If we are the one who have designed our lives and society - constructed the sets and created the drama - then we have the power to change them.
We are not just the victims of our situation. We are the creators of something new."
At this moment I can't think of a change I recently made in my life, but after I get off this computer, I'm going for a walk.
-Lita-
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